Perfect Girl
I kind of live in the past which is why I have issues dealing with the present and the future. This is mainly pertaining to relationships. I always look back and blame myself for failed relationships. Now I know I have issues and may have caused problems, but no way am I too blame for all of the problems. In fact, in a couple of relationships, I was not even the main cause of the problem. (When I say "couple" that is a big number considering I am only counting "SERIOUS" relationships) ....I do not consider many of the relationships I have had SERIOUS...the number would be 4. Every one of the girls in those relationships was the ONE. Obviously, either God is having a LOT of laughs at my expense right now, or they weren't the one.
Most days I hope it is just God having a laugh. But some days, and these are the worst, I start thinking I have already met the one for me and that was my one shot and since I messed it up I am going to be alone for the rest of my life.
I have come to a formula that may help me in the future. If I meet someone and I can listen to any of the following 4 songs without thinking of the "ONE" I may have already dated.....I will have found the ONE.
The songs.......
Truly by Lionel Richie
Don't You, Forget About Me by The Simple Minds
Don't Worry Baby by The Beach Boys
Layla by Derrick and the Dominos (Eric Clapton)
I have put this in chronological order. Which song affects me most? 1 and 3. I would give reasons as to why, but I am in not that much of a "bare my soul" mood. I will say that song 3 harbors the most intense feelings inside me though. Listen to the lyrics and I am sure you will be able to figure out the situation at the time. The other songs don't emit so much a feeling for me at the time, but rather a situation at the time. I look back and know exactly why I remember the other songs, but 3 is the song I chose....which is why it sticks out.
I fully believe when I meet a woman that doesn't have me thinking of anyone but her when I listen to the songs I have listed....she is the ONE.
I hope it turns out to be one of the 'anyones' I am trying to stop thinking about....that would tell me that true feelings aren't a waste....that someday they mean something.
Later.
Most days I hope it is just God having a laugh. But some days, and these are the worst, I start thinking I have already met the one for me and that was my one shot and since I messed it up I am going to be alone for the rest of my life.
I have come to a formula that may help me in the future. If I meet someone and I can listen to any of the following 4 songs without thinking of the "ONE" I may have already dated.....I will have found the ONE.
The songs.......
Truly by Lionel Richie
Don't You, Forget About Me by The Simple Minds
Don't Worry Baby by The Beach Boys
Layla by Derrick and the Dominos (Eric Clapton)
I have put this in chronological order. Which song affects me most? 1 and 3. I would give reasons as to why, but I am in not that much of a "bare my soul" mood. I will say that song 3 harbors the most intense feelings inside me though. Listen to the lyrics and I am sure you will be able to figure out the situation at the time. The other songs don't emit so much a feeling for me at the time, but rather a situation at the time. I look back and know exactly why I remember the other songs, but 3 is the song I chose....which is why it sticks out.
I fully believe when I meet a woman that doesn't have me thinking of anyone but her when I listen to the songs I have listed....she is the ONE.
I hope it turns out to be one of the 'anyones' I am trying to stop thinking about....that would tell me that true feelings aren't a waste....that someday they mean something.
Later.
posted by Maybrick at 9:48 PM
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