Birthdays
Well...today is\was my birthday...depending on when you read this. I used to look forward to these things. Today I actually told my family NOT to get a cake for me. This is the first time in my life that I did not have a cake for my birthday...and it was my choice.
Why????? Because what the fuck difference does it make? In the end you die. You can be the best person in the world and the closest person to God in the world as you can get and you will die. You can be a scumbag and do anything you want and you will die. The whole problem is what in the hell happens after you die.
Many people live THIS life for the "yet unproven" NEXT life. I wish with every atom in my body that there is a NEXT life because this one is not summing up to what I thought it would be.
Call it the birthday blues or whatever....just not feeling too great about things at the moment. My Chiro today said, "Be happy...you are still above ground because one day we will all be under it." Now I know her intention was not to bum me out even more, but she did. I know what she meant though.....live every day like it's your last.
I would...but I would always think it was my last day and curl up under the fucking sink like a sick cat.
Anyways....Happy Birthday To Me!!!!!!!!!!!!
Later.
Why????? Because what the fuck difference does it make? In the end you die. You can be the best person in the world and the closest person to God in the world as you can get and you will die. You can be a scumbag and do anything you want and you will die. The whole problem is what in the hell happens after you die.
Many people live THIS life for the "yet unproven" NEXT life. I wish with every atom in my body that there is a NEXT life because this one is not summing up to what I thought it would be.
Call it the birthday blues or whatever....just not feeling too great about things at the moment. My Chiro today said, "Be happy...you are still above ground because one day we will all be under it." Now I know her intention was not to bum me out even more, but she did. I know what she meant though.....live every day like it's your last.
I would...but I would always think it was my last day and curl up under the fucking sink like a sick cat.
Anyways....Happy Birthday To Me!!!!!!!!!!!!
Later.

